I am at a literal fork in the road. I’m surprised that this has happened. I didn’t think that I would somehow reach a fork in the road and then have my life come crashing down around me. It’s funny that sometimes real life imitates the emotional turmoil we’re facing inside of us. Things like that have always popped up randomly in my life, but coming up to a literal fork in the road is the most obvious of signs from the universe that I’ve ever received.
I wish that I could find the information that I’m searching for. I need to find it deep within myself which is really difficult because the person that I want to confide in is the reason that I’m facing this inner turmoil. The fork in the road that I’m at isn’t something that can be fixed by someone else. I wish that it would be as simple as just getting the local mechanic near Raceview to come and fix me, like he could fix my car. My car isn’t broken or anything, it’s just sitting at the beginning of the fork because I’m unable to make a decision as to which path to take. How ironic.
I have a feeling that this blog post makes no sense. It’s because my mind is jumbled. I just need to find simplicity where I can so that I can start coming to terms with what’s going on in my life and make decisions that positively affect me. I wish I didn’t need to make such life altering decisions though. Why can’t the decisions I need to make just be about choosing the best mechanic for my next scheduled diesel service? Decisions like that I could handle. What I can’t handle is the current decision I need to make. The one that is making me sick to my stomach. How will I go on? How will I make this decision? Please someone, help me.