Saying goodbye to something you’ve worked hard on is really difficult. I feel like I’m turning my back on something that I loved, nurtured and had a big part in developing. It’s really tough and I wish it wasn’t the case, but alas, this is the path that I’ve taken and I need to stand by this hard decision. What am I turning my back on? I’m moving houses because I’m moving to a different state to be with the love of my life. We met online and he said the only way we could be together is if I came to his state.
So, that’s what I’m doing. And I’m leaving behind freshly completed bathroom renovations. Melbourne, where I currently live, has always been my home and is where I imagined myself living forever. That’s why I bought my own house and decided to get the bathroom renovated. I thought this would be my home for the rest of my life and I wanted it to be perfect. But life is unpredictable, as I’ve heard so many times before, and so I’m picking up my life and moving elsewhere. It’s a bit surreal, to say the least.
I’m trying not to think too much about what is happening, seeing as I’m leaving everything I know and love behind. I especially don’t want to think about the obscene bathroom renovation cost that I paid. I thought it would be money well spent and it was, when I was still going to be living in the house forever. Now it feels like I’ve renovated my bathroom for nothing because I won’t even get to enjoy it.
Anyway, that’s a sacrifice I’m willing to make. I want to be loved more than anything and if chasing love across the country is what I need to do, then I’m going to do it. I’m ready for love and I’m ready for happiness. I hope that this man who I’ve fallen in love with online is just as lovely when he’s no longer behind the screen.