Imagining Myself Gardening
Will I ever feel comfortable and go back to a state of zen again? I don’t think that I will – and that’s really sad. Because I need to be in a state of zen to be happy and I need to be happy to function properly. It’s just an unfortunate cycle at the moment and because of this, I’m not working (or doing the things I love) efficiently in the slightest. I just wish that I could run away from all my responsibilities, buy salad and vegetable seeds online and then never come back to civilisation. I could start my own farm and grow my own produce. I would never have to come back to normal society again and that would save me so much stress. All of my stress comes from the rigours of modern society. All I want to do is be outside in my garden tending…
Procrastinating The Gardening
I don’t think I’m ever going to catch up. I’m well behind on all the work I had to do in my garden today and I don’t have time after work to get back out there and do any gardening. That means that if I want to get my gardening done, I’m going to have to do it during work and hope that either no one notices or that I do it really fast because of the time pressure that I’m under. They say diamonds are made under pressure so hopefully, that helps me work faster. Looking back on my decisions over the past few days, I probably shouldn’t have purchased the hybrid tea roses for sale online until I was actually ready to plant them. I’ve caused myself quite a bit of unnecessary stress and put myself under some serious time pressure which isn’t helping my general anxiety levels.…